Love or Pain?

A shattered heart and broken dreams
I try not to scream while it all builds within me
Unbearable pain now guides my path
Tearing my body into halves
It dilutes my soul and numbs my wounds
I keep loosing myself in each of you
My dreams crushed in the blink of an eye
Hope? True love? I'd rather die
Addictive self destruction, its not a dream
In this sad tale of my upbringing
All of them used me, all of them lied
Each time another part of me died
Even the ones I thought loved me
Turned out all they wanted was my body
The pain itself is too much to bare
Nothing in this world can compare
To the feelings inside that murdered my heart
Is there and end, or even a start?
Of something new and a better me
A world where I am loved and am free
Of this trap I call a body